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TOO cute.


Darren is almost 17 months old. He has 8 teeth, and growing more, and drooling me a river. He can say Papaaaaaa, Mummiiiiiie, Titaaaaaaaa, koh-koh, poh-poh, ble (ball), ble (bird), nenen, nana(banana) and pika-pika in the most adorable baby voice. He loves snacks, piggy-back rides, remote controls, phones, plastic bottle filled with water, cardboard boxes and his bolster. He loves shoes too. He scratches his head when he's sleepy. He's not afraid of strangers.

An absolute charm in his own way.

Pouches pouches

This is what I do to keep sane.

White Woodboard

There's something about white painted wood that I simply adore.




And they make great photography backdrops, like this one made by the husband for my birthday present earlier this year.

Next will be an entire feature wall of white painted woodpanels... when there are no more kids armed with crayons in the house.

Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep

You know one of those moment where you're in public, sitting at a cafe by yourself perhaps, or at the office on your computer, and then something compels you to cry, and you try very hard to resist, but you can't. Your vision becomes blurry with tears and you feel your nose tingling and your ears heating up and you can't stop it. You take deeeeeeep looooong breaths and try to psycho yourself with happy thoughts. You play this mental war game with yourself called "STOP CRYING NOW". But somehow that something that makes you cry just takes over your mind and then you break down.

This one just did that to me.

Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep. This is their mission statement:
To introduce remembrance photography to parents suffering loss of a baby with the free gift of professional portraiture. We believe these images serve as an important step in the family's healing process by honoring their child's legacy.

I typed 'legacy' wrong 15 times because of blurred vision. I couldn't even get pass their mission statement, I don't think I'm strong enough today to read through their stories, I know I'll be breaking down at the end of every sentence.

It's not just breaking down in tears. You have to 'climax'. You know that right? The point-of-no-return where you just decided to let it ALL out. Go vocal if you like. Then after that, you feel better while gasping for breath.

I had to watch Robert Pattinson say funny things to distract me.I will be making several attempts to browse that website again.

Bad Funny Dream

Last night, in my dream, I saw my miscarried baby. But it was a tiny tiny blob of something. I was looking at it, then IT MOVED!!!!!

IT FUCKING MOVED!!!

AND I FUCKING CRIED!

And then it slowly grew into a baby dinosaur! It was slimy and was trying to walk like a newborn calf.

Maybe it's being reborn somewhere in this world today. As a child of a nice normal sane rich and famous Hollywood celebrity, or producer, or director... of Jurassic Park.

Yes, it must be.

Obedient Wives Club

I feel lucky to be in Malaysia because I have news like this to make me laugh.

Ultimate shock value.

'Wives can curb social ills like prostitution by being obedient and alluring'

Obedient Wives Club to offer sex lessons on how to pleasure husbands

I gotta hand it to them for being upfront, honest and explicit about this. I can understand from an Islamic point of view/law because Christianity also have similar duty scope of a wife and husband albeit in a more 'loving,reasonable and new age' form. I think it's called The Five Languages of Love, and it is taught in pre-marital courses conducted by churches. It's like a little private guideline to keep your marriage healthy and happy.

But this club's belief and views are absurd beyond jaw-drop. Domestic violence, abuse and social ills are caused by disobedient wives who do not sexually satisfy their husbands?

This is my favourite quote from one of the founders, Dr. Rohaya:
"When husbands come home, wives do not welcome their husbands with warm alluring smiles and sexy dressing ... That is the reality today". Wow, she must've been living in some neverneverland.

Anyway, I expect this coming raya to be more 'sexy', like these Kuih Raya ala Obedient Wives Club.