Monday, April 19, 2010

Lovin' It

It feels good when you make a decision that feels right. It's funny when you feel good, everything seems to look brighter!

I decided to to be a stay-home mom.
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... until mid June. I will lose 2 months worth of salary and my bonuses will be pro-rated. But it feels worth it, on many levels.

I have learnt and understood my baby's cues better nowadays and that gives me a lot more confidence now. I know he gets more hungry before his bedtime, so I increase his intake and feed him at a shorter interval so he can sleep longer at night. I know his cry is different when he's hungry or when he's sleepy. I know his favourite napping spot on the couch. Babies aren't that scary if you know their 'pattern'!

A couple of weeks ago, I felt different. I was unsettled, a bit down and jaded. Why did I have another baby? Why did I have to follow the social norm of having at least two children. My life was perfect before this. Daniel was an independent kid, I had a great helper who did all the housechores, I had ample time doing the things I love which was sewing and crafting, I had my etsy shop to run, everything was just so fantastic. It made me decide that I wasn't a baby person. I wanted to pass baby to someone else to look after until he's like 2, the fun age. Is this a normal feeling? It could be. Some say it is a natural initial feeling. Now, I think it was just some crazy phase. All I want now is to BE with baby and watch him grow.



My wide-eyed little charm.

3 comments:

Bubbles said...

That's wonderful babes. Enjoy it. Is this an extended maternity period? Great that the company allows it.

Angeline said...

treasure every single moment because it will not last long.

Anonymous said...

Hello, Ally! This is Amy Tam. Congratulations on your baby! :) Hope to catch up with you all some day. I am in Sweden now.