Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Letter To My Boys: What Do You Desire if Money Didn't Matter

Friday, November 23, 2012

Would You?

Go down this motherflippin slide of head-exploding death? I have a heart attack just by looking at it.

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

How to Make And Play The Five Stones Game

Well, they are not really stones, but cute and soft little bean-filled bags. Back in school, we call it Batu Seremban. This is a traditional childhood game we girls used to play everyday during pre-assembly and recess. One could get rather obsessive and addicted to it. Now, kids could only feel the same way about iPads.

So, I wanted to bring it back. Hopefully Daniel will enjoy it!

What you need:
1. Five pieces of fabric cut into rectangles, measuring 8cm x 4cm.
2. Something to fill it up with. I use polypellets bought from Spotlight. You can use green beans. Or even small beads from old unused bead jewelry. Some use rice but I think after some years, they seem like they are leaking ricey powder.
3. Needle and thread.

What you do:
Fold the fabric pieces in half with the right side facing each other like this, and stitch the sides.

Turn them inside out.

Fold a hem inwards.

Fill up the fabric sacs with polypellets or beans or small beads.

Slip-stitch the opening. Or just stitch it up your way :)

Cute beanies!

How to play:
Traditionally, the first move (sometimes called the jockey) is to hold the five stones in your palm, toss them in the air, catch them on the back of your hand, then flip them up and catch them in your palm. If this is a little too hard to master, just skip it and get on with the rest of the game, which is played as follows. (Note: All the moves are done with one hand.)
Step 1: Toss all five stones(1,2,3,4,5) on the ground. Pick Stone 1 up. Toss it in the air, and while it is still mid-air, pick or sweep up Stone 2 and catch Stone 1 before it falls to the ground. Do this for each of the remaining Stones 3,4 and 5.
Step 2: Repeat step 1 but pick up two stones at a time.


Step 3: Repeat step 1 but pick up a combination of three stones and one.


Step 4: Repeat step 1 but pick up all four stones.
Step 5: With all 5 stones still in your palm, toss one up and quickly place the remaining four on the ground, and then catching the falling stone. After catching it successfully, toss it up again and pick up the four stones on the ground.
Step 6: Toss all five stones on the ground. Pick any two stones. Toss one in the air and exchange the other with one on the ground. Do the same with the remaining stones on the ground.
Use only one hand! At the end of this step, you will have two stones in your hand.

Step 7: Toss the two stones held at the end of Step 6. Pick up one stone from the ground and then catch the two falling stones separately in each hand. Do this until there is three stones in one hand and two in the other. Throw the two stones and catch it separately. Throw the remaining stone and catch it with the hand that has all the stones.


Step 8: Toss all five stones on the ground. Your opponent then selects a stone to be thrown in the air. The player has to pick this stone without moving any others. The player throws the stone in the air and picks the remaining on the ground in one clean sweep.

If at any point of time the player fails to complete this set of eight steps, he/she will have to forfeit his turn to his opponent. Upon his opponent's failure to complete, he will return to the incomplete step, starting from the very beginning of that step.


Note: There might be several variations of the steps but it’s ok! Just play it as you deem comfortable. You may visit the youtube link below for an example of a visual demonstration.







Monday, November 19, 2012

How to Make A Simple Bow Tie

I think bow ties are coming back. Remember Abdul Kadir, Mr Bow Tie? You will know if you have read enough Lat comics. He was the only minister who dared to wear patterned and colourful ones. Onz la Dato!

Now, patterned bow ties are like fashion statements. Like a cool geeky accessory. I have not seen any nice ones in JB, so what does a crafter with a nifty sewing machine do? Make some!

What you need:
1. Two pieces of fabric measuring 3.5 inches by 5 inches.
2. One piece of fabric measuring 4cm by 9cm. I just couldn't fit it in inches. Sorry for the unit inconsistency. Crafters are liddat.
3. Cotton twill ribbon/tape.
4. Small metal buttons.
5. Fray glue. Optional.

What you do:

Place the two big pieces of fabric together, with the right sides facing each other. Sew around the edge and leave a 4cm gap in the middle. For the smaller piece, fold it in half (long side) and sew one side.

Turn them inside out. It's easy for the bigger piece, but not so for the smaller, thinner one. Use a forcep or tweezer if you must. And have lots of patience.

TIP: If the fabric you're using is thick, turning it inside out will be impossible. Do this instead. Then fold it in half (long side) and do the slip-stitch.

The slip stitch is awesome because it is hidden. It is as if you turned the piece inside out.

Use slip stitch to close up the gap in the big piece.

This is the turned-inside-out pieces. Iron them.

Take the small piece and fold it in half. Sew an inch away from folded side.

Again, turn it inside out so that the extra bits are towards the inside. It looks like a thick ring doesn't it.

Next, pleat the center of the bow tie piece like this.

Fold it the same way to one side so that you can squeeze in the center ring. If it can't fit, you can thread in a corner of the bow piece first. OR make a bigger center ring.

You will need to do some adjusting so that the pleats are nice, even and centered.

Next, slip in the cotton twill ribbon behind the bow. The length of the ribbon is measured first beforehand. You can do this my measuring around the neck, and give an extra of 1.5 inch to fit around a shirt collar.

Use fray-stop glue to seal the edge. If you don't have the glue, use any strong glue will do, my favourite is UHU. And then sew the little silver snap buttons on at the ends.

Make different ones!










Wednesday, November 14, 2012

8 Years and Counting...

Last week, we were married for 8 years. It has been an amazing journey so far, and we're stronger today than ever before, and I look forward to many more years of togetherness.

Thursday, November 01, 2012

Emotional Closure After Miscarriage

I googgled exactly this. I thought it would probably return with 1 match linking to You Are Crazy Just Move On Bitch. But nooo... I was surprised that this is such a validated topic that seeks recognition by sufferers AND therapists, mostly Westerners. I have never heard of 'emotional closure' in Chinese, have you? Maybe to Chinese, the month-long confinement is part of the emotional closure. Get drunk and happy on wine chicken everyday speeds up the emotional healing, yes?

Anyway, this emotional closure is something I needed. I'm not sure if I had it, from the time it happened in April 2011 to recent days, I may have had it in some form but I may not be aware. I did all I could to have closure, you know. I named him, I even got obsessed with bunnies and bought a bunny soft toy and a figurine to represent him, I turned to my blog for expression, I cried for cathartic release, I kept doing what I enjoyed and what made me happy. But somehow, something's not complete.
The reason I'm searching for this now is my recent observation of my moodiness.
A friend pointed out that I may have post-natal depression, perhaps a mild and delayed one, I thought. But it's been more than a year, am I a 'slow developer'? Hee. Nevertheless, a depression is a depression and it could strain my relationship with the husband, which I felt has already happened. I am not as emotionally engaged as before. I keep a lot of things to myself. I don't even chat about mundane everyday stuff anymore. And these are actually the little things that keep a couple engaged and happy. I am withdrawing into my own world, and get upset occasionally if he does not 'seek' me. Maybe I want to be rescued.

So, back to the Google search, my little cyber support group. I pulled out some excerpts that resonated with me.

"..After my first miscarraige I was devisated. I drove for hours alone & in the darkness. I have only blurrs of memories of that evening. I was parked in a closed park. Then I was on the shoulder of the highway. Then I found myself back in my doctor's parking lot. Her office had been closed for hours & not even one light was on. But, somehow I felt like I had left my baby there. I needed it back! I kept my feelings inside because everyone in my family kept saying, "At least it happened early & you couldn't get attached.". It went unacknowledged except for the, "I'm sorrys". Is that what you say to a still born's parents? We had no closure. No funeral. No mass. Nothing. Not even a face to remember.

8 years have gone by and I'm still devistated. Not once does a day go by that I don't feel someone missing at the dinner table. " -taken from here. The writer also listed 5 ways to get closure.

"...I blogged every thought I had. Once I had it figured out enough to commit the thought to paper, it stopped swimming in my head and gave each topic a sense of closure. My grief counselor even confirmed that there are synaptic changes in the brain when you get a thought organized and finalized by writing it down so I wasn't just imagining that closure.
Write letters to the baby, write a diary, or blog, whichever best suits your personality and privacy preferences. It doesn't completely wipe the thought away, but I'd say it takes 95% of it out of your head, and if you can get rid of 95% of each of the thoughts and horribleness, that's quite a lot. The remaining 5% becomes much more manageable." -taken from here.

And this is probably the Mother of all hits. I have a couple of excerpts from this article written by a lady gynae:

"...When I tell a woman that she is not crazy for having feelings about her miscarriage and that her loss is real no matter if she miscarried in the 6th week of pregnancy or in the 6th month, she always looks relieved. I have validated her feelings."

"...comforting words might serve to disavow a woman's experience of loss rather than allowing room for it. Commonly heard expressions like, "It was early in your pregnancy," "Miscarriage is not uncommon," or "You'll have other chances" might be interpreted by a woman to mean "This happens all the time. It's no big deal. You don't have to get so upset." On the receiving end of such tarnished comfort a woman might be left feeling guilty for feeling grief stricken, after all, miscarriage, she is told, is not "uncommon". Or she might feel angry and think to herself, "No one understands what I'm going through!! I don't care if miscarriages happen all the time. It's a big deal to me and I feel wrecked!" Then she might find herself feeling isolated and alone in her experience"

This is how I felt. Alone.

And then it struck me yesterday. I have been alone, and rejected. The hubz said my body was weak and that I should rebuild my health back (IF we were to try for another one). He meant it as a matter of fact, harmless indeed, but to a woman who has miscarried, I interpreted is as "It is my fault, my body is weak" because there is a phase when you ask a lot of questions on why it happened, what caused it, what did I do wrong etc (see article above). And what he said affirmed it more. "It was my fault, and your fault alone"... that's what my head says. That was why I got upset and moody almost every week, every time he goes out for drinks. I felt alone and rejected.

I guess I'm unravelling the emotional closure I need. An apology and assurance from my husband. Assurance that he still loves and cares for me. An assurance that it wasn't my fault. An assurance that he will be my side side through it all.



Update: Isn't it funny, after having these thoughts 'keyed' down, I felt a huge sense of relief. I didn't ask or that apology. The fact that I recognize the cause was enough for now. Knowledge is indeed empowering.

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Is this a dream?

How beautiful this is. Autumm Kochia Hill in Japan.
Reminds me of the forest in The Lorax.

Monday, October 29, 2012

Moody Cause

A little psychoanalysis. I noticed I get moody every week. Since April. I get a little depressed and loony, especially with the husband, sometimes for no apparent reason, not for what he did, but what he DIDN'T do. EVERY WEEK. It's crazy I know, and I'm kinda fed-up with myself. Do you know how emotionally tiring it is? I'm this happy chirpy girl who has to be angry every week. What gives, girl?

There must be a reason of some kind, I thought. A possible cause?
I'm filling my void with emotional junk. Yes, that's it. I healed physically, but I may not have paid much attention to emotional healing. We went back to our lives as if nothing happened. We never talked much or deeply about it. We never had any memorial of some sort. It was just too emotional for us, at least for me until now. He worked harder in the meantime, and had gotten stressed out at work, while I needed more attention. But I couldn't express it because I was clueless. I was just this occasionally-loony wife crying in the dark, mad at her husband, mad at herself and completely out of control of her emotions. Did I say I was clueless?

Thank goodness, I have my craft station.

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Married to Smartphones

This has been brewing in my heart for a long time now (uh-oh) and I often feel sad and disappointed in the way things are nowadays.

What happened to the good old ways of hanging out together, communicating, cuddling and such in a home that was once filled with physical connections, lots of personal affections and trivial casual chit-chats. Those were so natural, like subconscious reflex. Now, the subconscious reflex is to reach for your smartphone regardless of whether there is a message alert beep or not.

Why is he whatsapping so much? Why is he playing games instead when we have a rare chance of lying in bed together just to chat after the kids are asleep? And if he's looking at his phone so often, why can't he reply a small favour I texted? Why didn't he texted me back? Why doesn't he call me during the day just to hear my voice? Why doesn't he leave me sweet-nothings messages?

The smartphones have taken away the romance. And I am miserable. I am genetically a romantic person. I am also a Piscean. I thrive on dreamland and affections. That is just who I am. My subconscious reflex, is to hug. I'm a hugger, a kisser, a tickler, a smoocher, a pecker, a holder. That is why I adore children because I could do all these so naturally. But when smartphones arrived in my home, I no longer felt I could be myself, the hugger. I want to, but I don't want to, why should I always be the romantic one? Resentment grew each day. It is miresable not being able to be yourself.

I even prayed. Daily. For God to give me abundance of love, for patience, to accept, for strength to be a loving wife amidst being chopped liver. But Samsung won (alongside the newspaper and the Golf Channel).

And what I'm most mad at is that he doesn't 'get it'. He doesn't sense that I need attention too. And the romantics HATE to have to spell it out loud. There was no way I could simply say, "Hey baby, put the phone/newspaper/remote down and have a chat with me, please?". Because that is NOT. ROMANTIC. And after being together for more than ten years, I expected some sensitivity towards my.. you know, body language, expression, and most importantly, what I'm NOT saying. I know, romantics are very hard to be with.

Then it struck me. As naturally as I am a romantic, men are naturally wired to be addicted to gadgets. It's the same as watching TV, especially if it's a good movie, your eyes are fixated on the screen and you just can't move away. It is also the same as driving by an accident scene on the road. We are all 'wired' to look. Darn it then why can't men be wired to be mutually romantic?

Monday, October 08, 2012

Doraemon Melts Hearts...

Couple of weekends ago, we popped over to City Square JB to meet Doraemon to celebrate his -100th Anniversary. HOW CUTE IS THAT. Minus 100th. Why?

Because he's from the future. HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA. Get it? Get it?

OK.

The meet-and-greet sessions were held at the ground floor atrium, together with stalls and stalls of mooncakes. And of course, there is a Doraemon mooncake stall. LOVE the Honey Jackfruit and Mango Tango ones. OH SO DELISH. Buy four and you get a free adorable bag! (will take pic)

When Doraemon and his gang come, they bring along the huge collections of souvenirs ranging from clothes (babies and adults), pillows, quilt covers, bedsheet sets, stationery, food containers, water bottles, lanyards, soft toys, room slippers, the whole caboodle!

AND YOU WANT TO BUY THEM ALL. The blue is hypnotic I tell you. It tells you to splurge.

The whole gang. Like Smurfette, Shizuka is the only girl that hangs out with them.

The free bag that came with 4 mooncakes.

Photo print of the meet-n-greet session. RM25.

Friday, October 05, 2012

IKEA Swedish Meatballs

Easy dinner.

What you need to buy from the IKEA food section:


1 pack of meatballs. Serves 6 gluttons. I assume there are 60 balls in the pack. The ones in Singapore are made of beef and pork I think.

A jar of MUST-HAVE Lingonberry jam. Condiments to the entire meal.

A packet of the sauce powder.

Whipping cream. Or cream for cooking/whipping. Bought mine from Giant.

Potatoes. Peeled and boiled, and halved.

Protocol:

1. Heat the meatballs in a single layer on a baking tray. Bake the frozen balls directly in a preheated oven at about 170 degrees Celsius for 15-20 minutes.

2. Make the gravy by boiling 280ml of water, then pour in 70ml of cream. Empty the packet of gravy powder and stir while boiling. The powder clumped a bit so I had to 'press' the clumps against the pot to dissolve them completely. One packet serves 4.

3. Serve ten meatballs per pax on a plate, pour gravy generously on top, along with 2 halved boiled potatoes, and 3 spoonfuls of Lingonberry jam at the side.

Easy peasy!


Wednesday, October 03, 2012

Handmade Ring Cushion

I made this for my sister-in-law who is getting ROM-ed this Saturday.

Materials: White/cream soft cotton linen fabric cut approx. 7" x 7". White cotton lace. Red embroidery thread and needle. Alphabet stamps (bought from Kiang Trading). Versacraft black inkpad for stamping on multi surfaces.

A friend gave me a copy of Clover embroidery pattern where I traced the birds from. The couple's names are hand-stamped below the birds.


To tie the rings, I attached a silvery grey satin ribbon folded in half, adorned with a crystal brad.

The back of the crystal brads look like this.

When the design is done on the cover, I stitched the front and back fabric with the lace in the between, right side of fabric facing each other (I had sewn a love later on to complete the design. Then it was turned inside out, and filled with polyester filling.

Done!


Thursday, September 27, 2012

McDonald's Petronas Skudai... NOT lovin' it

I had the worst service experience on Sunday 23rd of Sept 2012 around noon.

Mr. Pozali was serving at the counter I was queueing for. He was serving a patron before me, preparing his orders, and he spent quite a lot of time waiting for the kitchen to pass him the orders. This is what he does:

-Waits at 'kitchen collection point' for fried chickens. Places fried chickens on tray.
-Goes back and wait again for McChicken burgers. Places burgers on the tray.
-Rushes to pack fries, places them on the tray.
-Goes back to kitchen collection point and waits for another burger.
-Pours drinks into cups, and places them on tray.
-Passes the tray to patron and says 'Enjoy your meal!'

During all those times he spent waiting at the kitchen, why couldn't he take my order? I assumed it is their system ie. 'focus one by one'. FINE.

When he finished, he then took my order which is ONE bowl of porridge, I made payment, and he prompted the kitchen for the porridge. But this time, he didn't wait at the kitchen like he did previously. It wasn't 'focus one by one' anymore.

He suddenly became efficient and went on to take the next patron's order! WHY DIDN'T HE DO THE SAME FOR ME?!

And dear next patron took his sweet time ordering.

Patron: Mmm... ayam goreng dua
Mr. P: OK.. lagi?
Patron: Mmmm.... mmmm... burger ayam set tiga..
Mr. P: Ya.. lagi?
Patron: Mmm... nugget satu... tak, tak... eeerrr, nugget dua
Mr. P: OK... lagi?
Patron: Mmm... burger daging satu
Mr. P: OK... lagi?
Patron: OK, tu je.

(all this while, I am waiting like an idiot and fuming. Waves of angry heat is radiating from my scalp. Forget about me, I'm chopped liver)

Payment was made etc, and Mr. Pozali proceeded to assemble HIS tray with some of his orders first while my ONE bowl of porridge is still sitting in the oven, not retrieved.

WHAT. THE.

I was clearly very upset and very angry at his inconsistency in service.

NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT lovin' it.







Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Motherhood.. and McDonalds

Motherhood changes a woman, whether she likes it or not. Some of these changes are good, the rest, bad. Take me as an example. I was a timid, non-confrontational insecure girl who lived in her own world made of dreams. Cannot blame me, I'm a Piscean. Pisceans make the worst friend so they say, and they pick their noses when they drive. I have never read a horoscope that described me so well. And they tend to be distracted or diverted somewhere else, like the time I bought shoes instead of ... oh fish divert again. Pisceans swear a lot too (self declare).

ANYWAY... motherhood has empowered me. It has given me the strength and confidence I never knew I could have. The experiences I gain being a mother can never be compared to the ones I gain at my workplace. It also gave me an immense capacity to love. When you have that capacity, your whole world changes.

Now, the bad. Motherhood also gave me a scalp that could radiate these tremendous wave of heat and anger in mere milliseconds. And children, regardless of age, can see this angry heat wave because they have special vision. I think. The natural reaction is to scold. With great capacity to love, comes great capacity to holler. Even if it's running upstairs to your bed, covering your head under the pillow and shouting it out. A mother needs to let it out sometimes ya know. Children, how adorable and joyful they are, can also ignite the most fearsome fury in their mother's heart.

After years of being pushed to the limits, I have learnt to NOT tolerate unfair services. Like one rendered to me at McDonalds Petronas Skudai. I will elaborate this next because it deserves a post on its own.

SO, motherhood is a wild ride. It's awesome and can be tiring sometimes. No, I take that back. It IS tiring but you don't hear all the mothers admitting that, because deep down, at the end of the day, it's just love.



Thursday, September 20, 2012

The Police Force; JB vs Singapore

Having worked in Singapore and living in JB for more than 10 years, this is how I feel about the police force in the two nations.

Traffic police in JB makes traffic worse. Singaporean traffic police mostly will ease congestion or direct traffic appropriately.

I feel scared when I see a JB police although I didn't do anything wrong. I feel safe with a Singaporean police even though I did something wrong.

JB traffic police hide between the bush at the PLUS highway with speed cameras, pointing at traffic's direction (shoots the rear of your car). Singapore traffic police sit safely and clearly on overhead pedestrian bridges with speed cameras, pointing against traffic's direction (shoots the front of your car).

JB police are nowhere to be seen when they are needed the most. Singapore police appear almost everywhere even when they are not needed the most.

Why JB, why?

Monday, September 17, 2012

Sweet Pastel

Just some of my pastel products.